Saturday, July 22, 2006

a rollarcoster ride

overwhelming

tat's wad it is

the feelings i have now is all mixed up

it's like being on a rollarcoaster ride

but this time, there is no thrill at all...


i've been feeling really low the last few days..

the reason?

i really dun know... maybe i do know... but i just pretend not to know


all the bravefront and fake smiles is killing me

i can't concentrate

i'm in denial

i hate every single minute of this torture


i wun deny it

i am indeed unhappy and angry


it's totally not pms~


f.


besides, some assholes decided to make things worse on fri.

i tried to be nice about it but u losers were just a pain in the ass

go get a life since u dun seem to have one

nonsense is all u faggots have

shit u

shit u

shit u

i cannot believe i actually acknowledge u bastards as friends

i thank the stars i dun have to face u shits everyday

i swear

one more time

u do wad u do again

_________________________

go fill in the frigging blanks urself. damn irritating buggers


damn.

i wanna be happy again

how long will this stupid feelings stay?

i feel so stupid being so emo


the feelings are all bottled up inside

i'm not crying like i usually do

infact, i dunno wad i want

i dun wanna be alone

but i wanna be alone


it's all too damn confusing to understand

i really can't be bothered anymore


i'll try to be back


i'll try


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besides all mentioned above


i'm really sad rite now

was told an ex classmate met with an accident and has pass-on last night...

i'm still in shock

i cannot accept the fact that someone i knew is gone just like tat

furthermore, its someone my age


i am kinda upset i can't help

i am kinda upset i can't say the last good bye


I know GOD is with him now

peace be with you my friend


NOW

how much do i really treasure the chance to live another day?

how much do i really treasure the people i love?

i will learn to treasure all

i will be content


so now

iamreallynotme

i cannot tell u when i'll be the same again

i wish to be the same again too

and i hope it'll be soon



i'll pray~


it's gonna be a while

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